If you were to ask me if I'm completely happy I'd have to answer no. Yet, like most people, I think, while not wholly happy, I am not either wholly miserable. Somewhere it is written that whatsoever state you are in, therewith be happy. But it never really works out that way, does it? I have been stuck in an unhealthy cycle of working too much and acquiring too much. And it's not just me. My observation is that many of us have become chronically fatigued, impatient, fearful and for the most part, unhappy. We are clueless about the state of our spirits. We have lost contact with God and are “struggling for breath.” I feel the burden of responsibility, obligations and ownership and it is dragging me down. It will drown me if I don’t shed the weight. It is time to rest and recover. It is time to commune with Spirit. I feel absolutely certain that if I don’t do this now then I will perish in the near future.
A change of culture would be refreshing, so I am going to step off the treadmill and live in Thailand for a while. I am choosing the Land of Smiles over the Land of the Free. The reasons for doing so are clear to me, but it’s not so easy for others. I can tell by the questions and the "Yeah but" responses that people are struggling to understand why. Some feel it necessary to criticize my choice and to defend their way of life. If my choices cause others to feel challenged and to rethink their values, lifestyle and ideology, then perhaps I have done them a favor.
Perhaps this blog will help you see a side of me that has always existed but may not have noticed. You may call it Wanderlust, Vagabonding, Walkabout, Time Out, Copping Out, Narcissism or Insanity. What you call it doesn’t matter me. I need to change it up before I expire. You get the idea, I hope. Ahh - I can hear you now - "He's so negative. What a cynic!" You may be right. But I also think my assessment is accurate. All I am attempting to do here is make clear my own rationale. I am looking for a way to be happy.
